I was supposed to wake up in Chiang Mai..

you can't beat the weather in England today. it's hot, got a nice book, got some sun; but i gots no moneys for a cold one because it's all tied up in travel cards that i should be using right now somewhere overseas. somewhere overseas, with a chance of tigers, water fights, and plenty of people who know nothing of me or what i'm about. carter cuts inside on this early corner.. or does he?

i was, today, supposed to wake up in Chiang Mai, having taken a lengthy overnight bus from having spent the day in Bangkok. i woke up on a couch in my friend's bedroom in Melbourn. we didn't have a very good night, but the day served as a welcome remedy to calm me down from the previous day's bringings. cheers for that, tom.

i know and hope i'll look back on these past two days as something to throw smiles at - i've been depressed, angry, bitter. but i've also had time to spend with family and friends. i spent time that i could quite easily have wasted. small plus. plus-plus, i have 3 extra day's worth of wages coming my way, as the bakery will have me in up until i fly away *touch wood*. my now rearranged flight departs at 10pm on wednesday. only 6 days late. i have four days and one night to dispute the fact that i am a massively unorganised person. i haven't had to unpack because, four hours prior to the initial flight, i hadn't packed. please let time and good energy benefit me for once. i took it well.

we're making the best of an unpleasant situation. 'we' being myself and OD - my travel troop. he took the news much better than i ever could have hoped to take it. we're having a bbq tonight in the pleasant burnout of a warm english afternoon. suspiciously warm..

i don't want to be here anymore.



Spoken mind,
words wasting time,
Should've known
it takes a fall
to find
that Satellites
radiate
a need to levitate
and float away.

Satellites in line tonight,
they see it all,
we're taking off
and Caroline
sent Racing Time
she'll make the call
and we'll take it all.

And you light up The Stage!
We're taking off!
We'll take it all!
As we fire into space!
Far Far Away!

Stand up for the Spirit of the Game,
don't die with excuses in your veins.
and just in time, we're dodging spies
they're comin' in,
but we're taking off!

And You light up The Stage.
we're taking off.
we'll take it all.
As we fire into space.
Far Far Away.

I watch
We watch
Eye watch
We watch
A million moons away,
Stars were put in place,
and we are those stars.
Those Stars.
those stars?
Those Stars.

And You light up The Stage!
we're taking off!
we'll take it all!
As we fire into space!
Far Far Away!

We're shooting up on the way down
We're walking in on the way out
The Universe is our playground
And you're the ones we see now.
We're taking off, we'll take it all.



trying to make the best of who i am rather than where,

benj.