"she's a crazy" by scenes and sirens - summer is on it's way, people! (it's on their myspace page, check it out)!
say you make a decision in your life; and you're not sure if it's the right one. your almost immediate reaction is to wonder "what would other people think?". your close friends (in some cases, family) and their opinions being among some of your highest values (during the ages of 8-26ish?). try to wait at the front of your self-evaluation queue, yourself. it's what i'm working on these days!
now, your close friends aren't always going to agree with the decisions you make. that doesn't make them bad friends. in fact, often times, it means quite the opposite. anybody who cares enough to disagree with you, cares enough. that's what makes them such good friends.
there will be people in your life who will not agree with you to a point in which it is impossible to sustain a healthy relationship on such disagreeable terms. this is part of life and is painfully natural - and not without an obvious variance in the measure of severity from individual to individual... yeah!
(nobody could possibly fuck up as 'uniquely' as i have) - parting ways is natural. so is fallout. these are the fruits of our ill-advised labors. you're only evil if you can keep it up. you're only human if you can't help but feel ashamed. you're only virtuous if you're willing to do what it takes to save yourself. you're only strong if you can pick yourself back up. you're only real if you can feel. you're only you.
there are people in my life i can't live without. a sense of stability as strong as oak, my friends. people i would not trade the world for. and though that number is limited, it is also limitless. because if you have the world and nobody to enjoy it with, you don't have anything at all. trust is everything. even if you don't know it yet. i'm not even sure i do.
everybody realizes this at some point in their life. trust is an integral part of the architecture of any relationship. you can't be selfish and trustworthy at the same time. just a heads up - it takes a certain type of person to be a certain type of somebody.
suppose it's ultimately appropriate to say that i love my friends. a lot. some will stay, some will go. some will overthink. classicly. some will miss you, some will not. some will just have a great fucking time while we can :)
do NOT know where this came from, i've been listening to a lot of Francis & The Lights. i think they may be influencing me and my thoughts. enjoy things! i want to get "SMILE MORE" tattooed under each of my eye-lids! sunshine!
